I would like to say I have come to some sort of grand decision of what it is I’m going to do with my life. I have decided writing out my thoughts helps me make some sense of things. There have been bumps in the road and I have certainly learned a lot of lessons. As I continue to learn more I am enjoying writing about it and maybe some day it can also help others so here it goes…
Here’s my story:
I lost my job back in the second week of February 2009. I, in fact left a job [that was going nowhere] for the job that I wound up losing- so, there was much frustration towards that fact alone. With the time off I found myself constantly looking within, wondering what on earth I should be doing with my life. Every day I am self-analyzing focusing on what my skills are and what I like to do. I realize I’m crazy. I mean, after a very, very difficult day when I lost my job, a few hours after crying my eyes out, I stood up, got on the computer, and applied to some jobs. Meanwhile, during that time I was looking to move near work. Luckily I hadn’t yet moved! Nonetheless, losing my job turned my life quite a bit. I will never forget that day for as long as I live.
I have been in fashion for several years, between this crummy economy and losing my job, it’s made me question whether this is the ultimate industry for me. I keep asking myself if fashion is what I want to do. I have experienced retail on the selling floor and wholesale in the showroom. I even attempted to start my own business in fashion consulting/ closet organizing. At the time I decided that I didn’t have enough ducks in a row to stick to the business, my heart just wasn’t ready for it. After quite a few experiences with clients, I know what I would not want my business to be if I decide to do it in the future. That’s what the problem was I had to work out the details more thoroughly. Anyway, after that brief start of my independent business I really questioned everything and decided to put it on hold.
When you are unemployed there is a lot of time to examine yourself. A lot of lessons and useful tools are out there for the learning:
I had been taking the time to explore what I enjoy. I like fashion, people, music, art, children, traveling, sales, marketing and merchandising. And then I look at what it is I like about each of those. In fashion I like that it makes someone feel good about them-self. I love how fashion is always changing. I love taking a trend and putting my own spin on it. I love how a look speaks to its audience regardless of whether its intentional or otherwise. I enjoy interacting with people in a professional and or social manner.
I love music! Singing is one of my major passions in life. It is such a joy when I hear the right song that reflects my thoughts or feelings at any given moment. I love singing for an audience it gave me such a rush while on stage. I have such an appreciation for art. I love the way every piece of art is personally created, the pure creativity, and the interpretations a piece allows. I find it extremely extraordinary the way an artist can use the same media and create such amazingly different pieces. I adore children. They are so precious. I love to make children smile.When I visit an ill child it is truly remarkable, for a moment they forget how difficult their little life is at this time. It’s an incredible feeling which definitely puts things into prospective.
I love to travel, to see new places and different cultures. One day I would love to be a resident , perhaps somewhere in Europe. I enjoy sales, I am pretty good at it, however if I enjoy the product like fashion, than of course I am going to like it. I love to throw together an outfit and I like marketing and merchandising, they all allow me to be creative. I can set up clothes in a beautiful way that gives ideas and makes it appealing to the eye. I enjoy promoting a brand and coming up with ideas on ways for successful business. I continue to explore these all more in-depth.